Direction

Often, it is easy to become discouraged, for all of us.

Lately, I have been contemplating many of my decisions. Re: School. Politics. Religion. Ethics. Future. Relationships. Expenditures. Guilty Pleasures.
What I have come to realize is that I don't have a simple, involuntary system for controlling my actions or emotions when dealing with these issues. I don't know that I am meant to be an audiologist, or that I rest confidently in one person's interpretation of the scripture. How can one word define my political views? Even worse, what is there to like about politics? Is it right that something unethical isn't illegal and how in the world am I NOT supposed to fear the future? That's like saying there's no need to fret about a possible pop quiz tomorrow in a class you haven't had yet! I know I'm supposed to be the bigger person, but at what point do I become the fool? How do you deal with disliking someone you're supposed to love? Okay, I admit it, I bought a box of nutty bars and haven't worked out in 2.5 weeks. I'm scared to injure myself again from running, but I'm also scared to get fat and die from cellulite suffocation. Finally, if perfection is obsolete then why in the world are we always competing and why am I so often exhausted from trying to portray perfection? I win! I'm the best at imperfection!

I don't know the answers to these internal questions, obviously, but I came across a quote that makes me think that it will all be okay:

Life is so much more than what your eyes are seeing. You will find your way if you keep believing.